These are drawings that are 7 x 10 inches and are watercolor, pencil, and gouache on paper with my personal writings incorporated. I’m thinking about movement and touch, about being alone and living in “ordinary time” (what the Church refers to as the space in between holy days; it was always my favorite time as a kid).
This is the first drawing I’ve ever made that I’ve shared with anyone in the last few years that doesn’t have figures in it. It was hard for me to make something without figures. I feel like the movement created by the white watercolor being piled up on the gouache (ie, the floor) is a stand-in for a figure; a surrogate.
‘Struggling’ and ‘hanging’ or ‘suspension’ are words I keep coming back to over and over in my work and have now for a few years. There is this tension for me between really wanting silence and stillness and really fearing it; between courting awkwardness and hesitation and also hating all that stuff. I think this is where this theme comes from.